Sunshine and Sorrow

As the title states, we are experiencing wonderful weather here. Mostly all sun with temps. up to the 50's. GLORIOUS!!! But as I walk in the sunshine and view the sights, I'm constantly reminded of the children in the hospital. The only sunshine and spring air they feel is what pours in from the tiny crack in the window that the nurses open. When I cradle them in my arms I constantly wonder, what does their future look like? What kind of life will they lead? Will some of them even make it out of here alive? Today I was in a room where I have been often, just haven't said much about. It's still on the genetics floor, but there's only one with a genetics disorder in this particular room. But there is a child with down syndrome(kevin), a normal child(alexandra) and twins(sonia, and stefan). Stefan is like any other 8 month old (only on the small side, like every child here), but sonia is a good 4 months behind her brother. They also believe that she is either partially or totally blind. It's so heart breaking to watch her try to achieve a rather ordinary task for an 8 month old. Something like putting her thumb in her mouth takes her a good minute or two. She puts her hand in front of her face stares at it and then attempts to reach her mouth, but usually hits her cheek. She's a dependent little thing though. Every time I try to guide her hand in her mouth she pulls it out and tries herself. Her determination shows me that she's a fighter and she'll make it through ok. Everyday God shows me through these babies that just because I may have a small obstacle in my way doesn't mean I should give up. Kevin for example is such an inspiration to me. His digestion system is so messed up that every time his bowels move he screams because of the pain shooting through his body. But after the screaming ceases he looks at you and smiles. Kevin goes through this many times a day...EVERY DAY!!! What strength to be able to wake up every morning, know the trials you face, but still keep on going. These are just some of many children their that go through daily struggles. I am deeply humbled and will think twice next time I go to complain! I challenge you to do the same!!!